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    September, 2005

    September 6th

    Just got back from the performance show and I have had an awakening.  I am sick of making myself all down and sad and worried about my performances.  I am not helping myself in doing that.  Today I got to perform a song I wrote to the world and sing it for my Tita (Auntie) Nucay who passed away a few weeks ago.  I hope the Kaylan family know that "Home In Me " was for them too.  I have sung that song so much better but it was an honest and heartfelt performance.  My heart was racing with adrenalin from just finishing "Hard To Handle" and I found it difficult to regulate my breathing.  I was so nervous about doing "Home In Me" I worked myself into a frenzy.  My hands were shaking from nerves and adrenalin.  I really need to control my nerves and I refuse to let myself get like that again.  What’s the point?  Every day here is a blessing and every hour is an adventure.  The competition is so fierce that I feel the pressure in everything we do.  However, I will NOT let it get to me! I am very proud of what I did today and I am focusing on all that - not those bum notes in "Home In Me". I didn't sing through my nose nor the instrumental breaks so I hope INXS is pleased.  I did get the comment that they didn't see how "Home In Me" related to INXS - musically, probably not much, but as far as the message of the song, it had everything that should relate to INXS. They know how painful it is to lose someone.

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    apol1982 wrote:
    these negative posts about MiG are absolutely ridiculous! why can't some people just accept that MiG really does have a lot of fans? and when i say a lot, i really mean A LOT!! and MiG's fans (including me of course) don't just love him, they are more than a hundred percent loyal! i for one LITERALLY vote for him a hundred times (or even more if my fingers can still handle typing in all those codes) after his performances, and im just one person! and he has a really huge fanbase, being filipino-australian he already has two continents supporting him. so to those people who are trying to push him down (in vain, obviously), i hope you can put more sense into your heads. if you want the other contestants to win, then by all means, support them, but pushing other people down is definitely not the way to do it. to MiG, just keep up the good work, we all love you here in the Philippines! (kahit matalo ka pa, panalo ka pa rin dito sa amin, mabuhay ka pare!=)
    Sept. 13
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    i_Kat wrote:
    Dear MiG
    I know I'm a bit late with this, but... It's been a week and a half since I was in London, to attend Lavender For Life. We were all thinking of you, partly sad that you couldn't be there with us (although Cameron made sure you were there in spirit), partly excited knowing that you were getting ready to perform across the Puddle.
    When I came home, read the spoilers and realised that you were doing Home In Me on that partcular night, trust me, silly Kat as I am, to well up. It felt so right, and I'm so happy you got to perform that beautiful, beautiful song to the world.
    You would have been really proud of what the girls did last weekend. They did a fantastic job.
    Take care, and know that we're all thinking of you.

    All my love,
    Kat xx
    Sept. 13
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    theshecreature wrote:
    Back to "Scandal" (wherever that last post is now)

    Because you love conspiracy so much, here's another quandry: how do any of us know that your posts haven't been planted by the creators of this show to throw us off the real ringer (who for all we know could be someone not being argued about, like Suzie)? Or how does anyone know if my comments aren't planted, for that matter.

    The answer is: we (the fans) don't.

    But the problem I find with that conspiracy theory you've point to is that this supposed also-ran contestant who's "blowing the lid off the show" (or blowing smoke) doesn't seem to have any website up that anyone can find showing his/her original documents stating there would only be 14 contestants. And shouldn't this at least be making the tabeloids by now?

    My other problem with that is how the original 15 broke down, and this has been pointed out by others: 8 girls, 7 guys. Are we supposed to believe that there wasn't going to be an even 7/7 split if there was really to be just 14? Or are we supposed to believe these wahoos that keep popping up and saying MiG is actually a woman. Guess that's just one more plot point to be woven into this sticky web.

    To the rest of the rational world, perhaps MiG's got the numbers each week because he has talent (or he would never have been in the Queen play) and because his looks appeal to more than just whites. He's a Filippino-Australian, which makes his looks very appealing cross-culturally. Some people may not personally think so, but look at all the markets that this show gets its votes from... not only is it big in Japan, but it's seen most of Asia and Indonesia.

    Perhaps the biggest deciding factor is simply that North Americans don't rule the world anymore? That makes the most sense to me, really.
    Sept. 8
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    Amy wrote:
    How do you get friends with that lack of respect? And how would you know if cindi is fat or not? unless your a stalker
    Sept. 8
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    Rose wrote:
    Alright, to whoever the hell is wasting their time writing about how MiG "sucks", its called respect. Get a life.

    That said, even if whats-his-face's opinion doesnt matter to you, I honestly think your an amazing singer, and damn hot too, good luck with the show!

    And also, I think the only area for improvement in your performance is exactly what you meantioned here, nervousness. Some bits you come off really tense, but when your confident it shows. And you rock !
    Sept. 8
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    Amy wrote:
    look at yourself your the one who's been here longer than me posting stupid comments that make you look like some crazed person so think before you talk
    Sept. 8
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    Cindi wrote:
    Hard to find real posts with all this hate.
    Sept. 8
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    Velaara1 wrote:
    NascarFamily,
    Get a life. You don't make MiG look bad, but you make yourself look really stupid =)
    Sept. 8
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    Amy wrote:
    you people are being so rude could you do any better? show some respect!!!!
    Sept. 8
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    Velaara1 wrote:
    Home in Me was a beautiful song and those of you with nothing good to say, go spew your crap somewhere else. Nobody said YOU had to like it, but lots of us do. Your opinions are not the opinions of all the rest of us, beleive it or not, they are only yours.

    MiG, don't let nerves get to you. You did a great job and deserve to be there. Own it, you have what it takes to win.
    Sept. 8
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    Cindi wrote:
    Wow if it's true INXS planted Mig I must take back my snotty remarks about them and say THANK YOU! LOVE MIG!
    Sept. 8
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    Cindi wrote:
    I can find a lot of words about JD like Larry the lounge singer, can't sing, must be Elvis in carnate as he tries very hard to be Elvis with his little lip snarl and other moves, fake fake fake and oh very skinny.

    Mig VERY talented, would pay to see, great body, cute cute cute.
    Sept. 8
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    Joy/Zoe wrote:
    Hi Mig,
    It's great to know that you survived another week without going to the bottom three. My daughter Zoe was so happy she even called me up at work to let me know of the good news.
    Zoe is just 5 years old, and probably your youngest fan. She never fails to watch the shows and she would say, "if Mig's at the bottom 3, I'd totally scream." She also keeps on telling us you are one of the reasons she's proud to be Filipino. She's also very excited about the fact that you have cousins from Alabang as we also live there. Zoe can't wait to see you when you visit the Philippines.
    Good luck and keep us proud!
    Joy, DVM
    Manila, Philippines
    Sept. 8
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    Cindi wrote:
    Why are you going on about Mig being a woman how stupid is this it wasn't Mig that kissed Ty on the lips it was JD. It's not Mig who wears arm bands, talks about tattoo's and moves his hands like a woman thats Marty. Mig was all over his wife hmmmm.
    Sept. 8
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    migfan17 wrote:
    MiG,
    I never listened to INXS before this show and may not listen to them afterwards, unless you are their frontman. You are the one who has hooked me on this show and I will follow your career wherever it takes you. You are so talented and captivating and deserve a better career than reviving a stagnating band.
    Your attitude and graciousness have made you shine far more than most of the people associated with this show. Marty has impressed me with his attitude and talent and I am sure that he would be ashamed of the way some of his fans are writing on your space. He seems like a nice guy, but too hard rock for me. I am not surprised at the way J.D. fans are commenting; that's just their mentality.
    If you are on a grassy knoll, all your fans, me included, want to be there with you. I loved "Home in Me" and was not surprised that it touched so many people. You are really a class act and I wish you the best!!
    Sept. 8
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    beauty wrote:
    For those who are not a fan of Mig...going thru this blog to insult him only shows how jealous and miserable you guys are. Mig has not yet sang an INXS song because he's talented. Instead of wasting your time typing your insults here, vote for your favorite instead to keep them safe. Mig fans are loyal and can never be put down by your obvious jealousy.
    Sept. 8
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    AussieFan wrote:
    Scandal, you should go take your meds dude.

    Marty fan, this week was MiG's worst week, granted, but he is easily the best fit for the band. If one crap week was enough to finish everyone off there would be no-one left in the comp. MiG has not even been in the bottom 3 once. Why? Because a shit load of people vote for him, simple as that.
    Sept. 8
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    Scandal wrote:
    I have been doing some digging & it appears that the show has been rigged from the very beginning. According to an anonymous source claiming to be one of 50 "semi-finalists" trying to make the final cut, There was only supposed to be 14 singers for the show, not 15. The source claims to have contracts clearly stating the 14 number. They also say that when the show started the "extra" singer wasn't even a part of the 50 singers trying to get on the show.

    This "extra" singer is Mig Ayesa, an Australian singer living in London. If you read the message boards for the show, you see plenty of posts saying there is something that seems off. Mig is the topic of many conspiracy theories.

    Here are links to websites that gave rise to the idea that the show hasn't been "real" from the beginning:

    This is a Chicago based website that talks about the two hometown favorites, Marty & Jessica.

    http://www.chicagoist.com/archives/2005/08/11/preemptive_sour_grapes.php

    And this is the message board that gave rise to the "pre-emptive sour grapes" article.

    http://www.velvetrope.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Board=UBB1&Number=656219&page=&view=&sb=&o=&fpart=1&vc=1

    Something has seemed wrong about this show from the beginning. I am a musician and I sing. I have been blessed with an ear that can tell perfect pitch or not. I can pick apart the different parts of a song and tell you what is off.

    What has been off most of the time is the criticism given by Co-host, Dave Navarro and from the band, INXS. They unfairly criticized performances that I could tell were spot-on. They raved about performances that I knew were way off. And I'm not going to get into how they mistreated my favorite, Heather Luttrell.

    But the most unfair criticism goes to J.D. Fortune. From the first show Dave Navarro was on his case. But J.D. repeatedly came back with great performances. His personality might rub people the wrong way, but talent-wise he is everything you would want for a frontman/lead singer.

    Last night's show was a blatant example that this show is staged. The first song was all 5 remaining contestants singing a song with INXS & Dave Navarro playing the music. It went off way to smooth. People had solos and nobody stepped on another's toes (so to speak) with the way they sang or moved on stage. It was obviously rehearsed, but it was played for tv like it was the spontaneous idea of Dave Navarro.

    There is a law about "truth in advertising", there should be a law about "realness" in a show billed as a "reality" show. We, the public, are being lied to by the producers of this show, by INXS, and by the co-hosts. The contestants (all but the "extra" , 15th contestant) might - I say MIGHT, be in the dark, but it's clear that this show is following a plan.

    Mark Burnett, the Executive Producer of this, and several other "reality" shows, is allegedly being sued by writers who say they aren't being properly compensated in salary for the work they are doing on his reality shows. If there are writers on a reality show, how "real" can it be?

    On the show "The Apprentice" they film every contestant doing the dreaded "walk of shame" that signified being "fired" at the beginning of the shooting. This means that there is footage of every winner having the "you're fired" walk in existence somewhere. If you look closely when someone is fired, they frequently have a different hairstyle when they enter the cab, from when they leave the boardroom. Another tidbit is that when someone gets in the elevator to "go home" the elevator doesn't take them to the street. It's staged to "look" that way. See, many reality shows sequester the "losers" somewhere so that the public doesn't get inside information ahead of time. Another, not well known fact, is that the "boardroom" isn't above the apartment that houses the contestants - it's right beside it. Contestants can get a slight hint of what's going on because you can hear some of the sound coming from the boardroom.

    Some have speculated that the spot was filled ahead of time, and that this show is just a way to get the public adjusted to a new singer for the band. The voting is just a way to get the public involved - to make them feel like they are a part of the process. What appears to be true is that the band saves contestants they want to keep, even if the public disagrees with them.

    I noticed a disclaimer on "The Apprentice" during the final credits. It says something to the effect that Mr Trump makes the decision of who to "fire", but that he consults the shows writers/producers beforehand. This could only be to see which choice best fits what would be best for ratings & the show - not who the best contestant really is.

    Mark Burnett created "The Apprentice", "Survivor" (the show that has the writers upset with their pay that they want to sue), and "Rockstar:INXS". These three shows are at the center of a controversy of how "real" reality television is.

    If Mig Ayesa wins this competition, then that will be a black mark on the concept of "reality". If Mig was already given the spot before the show began, then there should be repercussions for such dishonest actions by all involved with perpetrating a fraud.

    But, as Dennis Miller used to say: "That's just my opinion... I could be wrong."
    Sept. 8
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    Marty Fan wrote:
    Hey Aussie Fan,
    Obviously you want an Aussie to win but let's face it - MIG is female. We want a REAL rock-n-roller who doesn't sing whimpy songs or look like he just stepped off Broadway singing "Rent". Mig's original song sucked and no one wants to pay to see him.
    Sept. 8
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    dede wrote:
    Now that I have vented, I will focus on what I originally intended to write. No, wait a minute...I'm not through venting.... To "Hercules": What a STROKE OF GENIUS" it took to write your entry. Do you write for Hallmark? Or are you a homophobe? Save it for someone as single-minded as yourself.

    To "Scandal": Make up your mind...is MiG already picked by INXS or not? First you say he never was at auditions, and then you say that his photo is "out in left field--lost and alone". Which is it? That, by the way, was a rhetorical question...I don't really care what conclusion your challenged mind has come to. My thoughts on your entry, if it were true, would have to be that I am very proud that INXS could come up with such an idea...what better way to get your lead singer noticed and make money doing it? In the same breath, wouldn't every other rocker on the show know this and have to be in on it too?

    MiG has very dedicated and loyal fan base. His fans range from Australia to the Philipines and all the way down here in little old Texas. He has already made a name for himself as a singer, no matter what happens in the show. Some people were just meant for greatness...he's one of them. I hate to see the negative comments being posted because they are hurtful and mean, not only to MiG, but to his wife and family, and even to one of the INXS bandmembers. Despite what these people say, there are many (and I do mean MANY) of us that believe that he is the only choice for the position. It wouldn't matter to me if they had already chosen him and the show was just a farce. Regardless, I will keep right on voting on Tuesday nights, and I encourage other MiG fans to keep up the good work!
    Sept. 8

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